That Gut Feeling…

… that you are incredibly unprepared has hit me. My head is still telling me that I have 15 days until I leave but I feel like I should already be packed and ready to go.

Today was pretty uneventful, even with it being Christmas. Gone are the days of staying up as late as I could in hopes of seeing Santa or catching Mom and Dad in the act and then waking up at the ass-crack of dawn to run into my parents’ room, jumping on the bed, and ordering them to be out in the living room in 30 seconds… or else. The entire break has kind of been thrown off for various reasons, but this year especially I felt that my family took a very relaxed approach to the holiday season. Mom, who is usually super secretive and strict about us knowing what we are getting, didn’t even seem to care this year. I could tell she was disappointed this morning because of it and did my best to reassure her that I was okay with how things had worked out, but I can’t help but feeling like Amy and I should have made more of an effort to keep our own presents secret from ourselves so that Mom could have had more picturesque faces of utter surprise. Never thought those words would come out of my mouth. The day was a smashing success though. We did presents, ate our traditional Christmas breakfast of sweet cinnamon rolls, Skyped with Sara in Cambodia, watched a movie together, dispersed to play with our gifts, ate dinner (the gooiest lasagna I have ever had but it was delicious), and I then watched the Bulls and Bears games. So about as relaxed a Christmas day as you could get.

Getting to talk with Sara was good because it made the day feel a little more like normal and definitely cheered the parental units up. I don’t know if it is the weather, my preparations for Australia, or if this is just how the holiday season becomes as you grow older… but something has definitely been different about this year than others. For both traditions, we just seem to be a lot more laid back about things. There hasn’t been a lot of the hustle and bustle of the holidays but just a kind of day to day pace like all the other times I have been home. I would tell you how I feel about it, but I can’t decide quite yet. I’ll be sure to let you know what conclusion I come to though.

The process for Australia took a step (however small) today. I sat down and made a pretty extensive packing list in hopes of shaking that feeling I am forgetting something but it didn’t help. So tomorrow I will try something different. Honestly, I am just ready to go. I’m treating 15 days like it is 2 because I just can’t wait to be on that plane. Its nothing against anyone or anything here, this is just something that I have been working towards for a year and it is finally getting so close but feels like it is so far away. One things that I have definitely begun to do is collecting music and movies for the trip. So if you have any good suggestions make sure to leave them in a comment!

More tomorrow, details on the trip coming as soon as I feel like sitting down and laying it all out on here. Soon!


One thought on “That Gut Feeling…

  1. Hey Ben!
    I can’t wait to hear more about your adventures “Down Under”! I totally get what you mean about the holiday seeming more relaxed. I felt like it was the same way at my house: just very casual-no waking parents up or anything…I guess it’s what happens as we get older. Hope all is well!

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